A little James Blunt will do anyone good...

My life is brilliant. My love is pure.

Things are looking up, my dear friends. Week 3 is looking a bit more manageable. And I'm starting to feel okay about saying "yes" to some things. I just need to know when to say "no" as well.

And I don't know what to do.

You know, people keep asking the doomed 2nd-semester senior question: and what will you do when you graduate? So, before you, too, ask that question: I don't know what to do.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful, it's true.

Maybe you pop-music fiends have noticed a trend. But let me say, you, my friends are beautiful. If you're not here, I miss you, as always. If you know of rockin' jobs where you are, shoot me an e-mail. I'm pretty open to just about everything.

It's time to face the truth...

The end of academia is coming to an end. So is my scattered post.

Peace

When peace like a river, attendeth my way,
When sorrow like sea billows roll;
What ever my lot, thou hast taught me to say,
It is well, it is well with my soul.

It is well with my soul;
It is well
It is well, it is well with my soul
with my soul;

Though Satan should buffet, though trials should come,
Let this blest assurrance control.
That Christ has regarded my helpess estate,
And has shed his own blood for my soul.

It is well with my soul;
It is well
It is well, it is well with my soul
with my soul;

My sin--O the bliss of this glorious thought!--
My sin, not in part, but the whole,
Is nailed to the cross and I bear it no more;
Praise the Lord, praise the Lord, O my soul!

It is well with my soul;
It is well
It is well, it is well with my soul
with my soul;

O Lord, haste the day when the faith shall be sight,
The clouds be rolled back as a scroll,
The trumpet shall resound and the Lord shall descend;
"Even so" it is well with my soul.

It is well with my soul;
It is well
It is well, it is well with my soul
with my soul.

Why?

Why are all of you gone? Why does this Dordt community with such a reputation feel so shallow, so empty? Why will my mind not let the job-less future rest? Why do I feel so restless here? Why do I feel so changed, so usefully changed, yet so empty?

2 questions...

1. Do you shop at Wal-Mart? Why/Why not?
2. Do you donate to any charities? If so, how do you choose?

feelings running through my head... (and brain and body...)

- awkward
- odd
- un-normal
- frustrated
- apprehensive
- excited
- anxious
- self-conscious
- forward-looking
- backward-looking
- sintiendo falta de personas
- empty
- unsure

Anyway, this isn't a post created to make you feel badly for me. It's just how I'm feeling and I needed to get it out there.

endings

So, about this post...Blogger and my computer aren't agreeing at the moment, so I'm finally posting upstairs...silly computer. I think it's because it's low on memory.

In other news, I'm back from Connecticut. A wonderful trip that got me thinking about future job opportunities as well as missions and connections with people from all over the world.

I originally entitled this post "endings," because I had blogged about things like wrapping-up an end in Costa Rica, finishing the conference, and starting my last semester (D.V.) at Dordt. That's all true. I just feel as inclined to reflect on that :)

So, here's a fill to the post with only a title earlier.

Jehovah Jaira

New Englanding it Up

Welcome to New England. We've been here for about 6 days now. I feel like quite the traveler!

This week we were at a conference in Connecticut which was really good. A good time, great way to meet more people, expand your boundaries, and I've been learning a lot, too :) We're going back to the conference tomorrow, so we needed a place to hang for the weekend. We're at some of my family's in Pennsylvania, which has been really fun. We've been able to play with kids and sleep in and hang out. This morning we were greeted (woken up!) by a 5-year-old girl ready to hang out. It was funny, and, luckily, only 5 minutes before we were planning to get up!

Today we're heading into Philadelphia to see some of the sights and hang out. It turns out we'll be spending the night in a hotel in Philly because they can't take us to the train tomorrow morning, and then we'll be taking the train back to Connecticut tomorrow. The conference goes all through next week and we'll be getting back late Friday night. I'm excited to go back and hang out with people that I've gotten to know. We've met some amazing people, so hopefully we can keep these connections going. And, maybe this week, I won't hear the eternal "so what will you do when you graduate?" question!

Well, that's about it. We're heading to Philly soon. Should be an adventure with 3 kids, their parents, and the two of us. (Me & SVD). Hope all is well with you and yours. I'll be seeing some of you soon. For those of you I won't be seeing...keep in touch as always!

Jehovah Jaira